When I was fifteen years old, I got invited to come try out for the provincial soccer team. I never went because I was afraid I would get cut.
When I was 19, I tried out for my university soccer team and made it through the first series of cuts, and then quit before I could fail.
When I was 20, I wanted to take a year off from college and travel Europe. I never went because that wasn’t what the people around me did.
When I was 27, I was deeply entrenched in the life I was taught to want… I had a good job, was engaged to my girlfriend from college… I was doing everything ‘right’ and was right on track based on who I was taught to be and what ‘success’ looked like, but I couldn’t do it anymore.
All the times I’d abandoned myself and quit before I could succeed and grow had added up. I was living a life that wasn’t mine.
I felt numb, confused, depressed and lost.
I left my engagement and began the journey of trying to figure out how I got to a place where I felt so disconnected from who I truly was.
And so began my deep descent into my own heart and soul.
A few years later I was sitting in a restaurant with my friend Fahn when she asked, “If you could do anything and get paid for it, what would you do?”
“I would tour the world and speak and teach about relationships”, I replied without hesitation.
This was about four years before I started writing publicly about relationships on the platform that would soon become Create The Love… It took me that long to build up the courage to hit “publish” and reveal my deepest passions to the world.
Why did I wait so long? Because I was afraid… Afraid of being judged. Afraid of people thinking I was a fraud. I wondered, “Why would anyone listen to me?”
Any of those fears sound familiar?
Even though it took me four years to really do the thing and put myself out there, I had finally changed my pattern. What was perceivably just a conversation about dreams and idealized futures at a random restaurant, was actually what planted the seed to dreaming about the reality of getting paid to teach what I loved and cared most about: love.
I tell you this story because I know a lot of us quit before we begin. Like me, a lot of people are so terrified of failing or being rejected, that they sabotage what’s possible and reject themselves so that no one else can.
Whether it’s opening your heart to love or opening your soul and the world to your purpose, I want to teach you how to do that NOW, and not wait like I did. I want to walk you through all the things I learned from sabotaging, waiting, giving up, and then finally finding something that truly mattered to me…
And the thing that was so crazy, is that what would motivate me to finally let myself win and go to the edge of what I knew was possible, was my greatest pains.
Your frustrations are the doorway. Your wounds are the wise elders preparing you for your soul’s contribution to the world.
And your calling can’t be ignored.
I am running a free masterclass on December 15th on how to not only finish 2024 with a bang, but also how to stop sabotaging yourself, your growth, and having the love and life that you desire.
Don’t finish the year doubling down on your dysfunction, or going back and banging your ex, or texting that misaligned person who’s unsure about you and doesn’t want what you want… take control of your life, embrace the calling of your soul, walk right into the doorway of your wound, and leave the masterclass feeling clear, aligned, and ready to create some MF’ing love.
Much love,
Mark
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